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I’ve been paying extra attention to dandelions over the last few weeks. They are so damn cheerful! I especially love the period in early spring where they are all still yellow, bright pompom pops of sunshine from every green space.

As spring progresses, their growth cycle becomes more apparent: first those bright and cheerful bursts of colour, then the transition to those wispy puffs of white and grey. Who has never blown on a dandelion puff, like a birthday candle, making a wish and helping the seeds spread far and wide?

Compare the ground to the sky above. Bright yellow flowers form dandelion constellations, then become light and wispy floating clouds on a background of brilliant green.

I’ve been admiring them for weeks. And then, on our walk yesterday, I finally wondered how it is that they make that transition from one state to the other. Aldon and I talked about it, picked a few to examine, and mused on it.

When I returned home I visited the oracle of google to uncover more information. I searched for time-lapse dandelion and found this gem:

Which then led me to this delight:

Don’t you just love dandelions?

I love this time of year, the pause between Christmas and the New Year. I’ve been able to enjoy it throughout my life, as a kid, a student, staff at a University, and now that I’m self-employed.

It’s a wonderful time to reflect on the past and imagine the future while enjoying the present.

Of course, not everyone is so fortunate. Many of our “essential workers” are working long hours away from home and family. This time may not feel quite so special for them. My Bee has worked retail most of the time I’ve known him and he always has to work. He was lucky this year though with 24-26 off as well as 31-1: the benefits of stat holidays paired with a bit of luck and scheduling kindness.

Anyway, I’ve been taking it pretty easy. Giving myself some space and time to really consider what I’ve experienced and learned over these past 12 months, and what I’m interested in and curious about for the year to come. What do I want to keep? What do I want to give up? What do I want more/less of?

I’m thankful for this quiet time and space, this peace. I think I want more of that. I know I want more writing (less thinking about writing), more listening, less judging, more music, more creating. More courage, more kindness, more compassion. More love. Always more love.

Since 2012 I’ve kept track of the books I read in Goodreads. I’ve set a reading challenge for myself each year since 2014. Sometimes I reach it, often I don’t. I like the idea of reading a book a week, but after reading 60 books in 2018 & 88 in 2019, I set a 60 book challenge for this year. I’ve read 32.

I simply wasn’t able to sit down and read for most of this year. Since March, I found it incredibly difficult to focus. No surprise there. I’ve missed reading though, and kept returning to read a page or a chapter. I’d try starting something new, I tried audio books, graphic novels, anything to get back into the habit, but it was a slog.

I still don’t feel like I’ve fully recovered my reading mojo, but I did manage to get through a reasonable number of books, one way or another, and I thought it would be good to reflect on some of those here.

Sci-Fi

Network Effect by Martha Wells. Oh Murderbot, you slay me. I ADORE this series. The novellas were so much fun, and this latest full-length novel is incredible. More! More! I just finished this a week or so ago and it was a joy to read. I wanted to pick it up every day and dig in.

Recursion by Blake Crouch. I read this at the beginning of the year, long before COVID hit my radar. I really enjoyed his last book, Dark Matter, and Recursion did not disappoint.

The Expanse novels #4-#8 (plus 2 novellas). I love this series, and after watching the fourth season last winter I knew I had to power through the rest of books this year (the fifth season just dropped)! I spent a lot of time with the crew of the Rocinante in 2020. I read Cibola Burn & Nemesis Games pre-pandemic, but got stuck on Babylon’s Ashes. I ended up switching to the audio book versions to get through it, Persepolis Rising and Tiamat’s Wrath this summer.

Audio Books

I’m blurring lines between categories here, and while technically sci-fi, I think The Consuming Fire & The Last Emperox by John Scalzi get their own category for the simple fact that I was delighted to have Wil Wheaton read these two books to me. I read The Collapsing Empire two years ago and enjoyed it, but Wil’s narration really brought the Interdependency series to life for me.

Memoir

Reading High School by Tegan + Sara and Hunger Makes me a Modern Girl by Carrie Brownstein early this year really cemented my desire to learn to play guitar. And I did. I now rock. Honestly, playing guitar and singing has helped me immensely this year.

Self/Improvement

Consider This by Chuck Palahniuk is interesting, inspiring, helpful and hilarious. I managed to get through it all, but I know will return to it again.

Adventures in Opting Out by Cait Flanders. A Canadian kindred spirit! This book and its hiking-as-metaphor is delightful, made even better with a 5-week online meeting to discuss the book’s sections this fall. It’s a gift to find the others, people out there with similar ideas, desires and challenges, and I am grateful for this book, this year.

Building a Better World in your Backyard by Paul Wheaton. This book is strange and wonderful, packed with some really incredible and useful information. I received a free copy and now I kind of want to share it with everyone. Permaculture! Rocket Mass Heaters!

Poetry

When I first heard about Maria Dahvana Headley’s Beowulf: A New Translation I knew I had to check it out, and it did not disappoint. I tried the audio book and thought it was awful. No, this one begged to be read aloud. I thoroughly enjoyed taking my time with this lyrical beauty. Absolutely delightful. I might suggest it as a lovely gift for your favourite D&D bard…

Graphic Novels

I actually read more graphic novels than I counted in Goodreads this year, but a lot of them were not worth mentioning. I did enjoy some adaptations from novels: Octavia Butler’s Kindred and Parable of the Sower, and Kurt Vonnegut’s Slaughterhouse Five.

On a lighter note, I Hope This Helps: Comics and Cures for 21st Century Panic by Tommy Siegel was super funny.

The book that unlocked my focus and got me back into reading again this fall was The Outsider by Stephen King. Those who know me know what a fan I am, and this book got me back into a regular reading habit. Addictive, in a good way. Thank you Mr. King.

Even though I fell behind this year, I still plan to set a reading goal for 2021. I’ll probably stick with 52 and hope for the best. I’ve got a long list of books I want to get to!

I wanted to make another ukulele Christmas song video this year, but with the pandemic, it’s been really hard to find any holiday spirit.

I remembered the Dolly Parton song “Hard Candy Christmas” from the musical The Best Little Whorehouse in Texas (which I performed in at Walterdale Theare in 2010) and I thought I could learn that to record. A little more sombre, although still hopeful. Perfect for the times.

But then I got inspired. Why not make those simple rhyming lyrics a little more personal and really embrace the full pandemic holiday experience?

Hard COVID Christmas

(alternate lyrics by Marsha Amanova)

Hey, maybe I’ll knit a sock
Maybe I’ll take a walk
Maybe I’ll meditate
Maybe we’ll stay up late bingeing TV
Me and Aldon Bee
Maybe I’ll try to read
Maybe we’ll smoke some weed
Maybe I’ll make some tea
Maybe we’ll role play D&D online
We will be just

Fine and dandy
Lord this is a hard COVID Christmas
I’m barely getting through tomorrow
But still I won’t let
Sorrow bring me way down
I’ll be fine and dandy
Lord this is a hard COVID Christmas
I’m barely getting through tomorrow
But still I won’t let
Sorrow bring me way down

Hey, maybe I’ll bake some bread
Maybe I’ll shave my head
Maybe I’ll write a poem
Maybe I’ll stay at home and sing this song
Me, I’ll carry on
Maybe I’ll get on zoom
Maybe I’ll scroll some doom
Maybe I’ll play guitar
Maybe I’ll be a star in my own mind
Me, I’ll be just

Fine and dandy
Lord this is a hard COVID Christmas
I’m barely getting through tomorrow
But still I won’t let
Sorrow bring me way down
I’ll be fine and dandy
Lord this is a hard COVID Christmas
I’m barely getting through tomorrow
But still I won’t let
Sorrow bring me way down

‘Cause I’ll be fine
I’ll be fine
I’ll have a glass of wine
And I’ll be fine

I may not participate in most of the so-called social mediums, but that doesn’t meant that I don’t spend time doing silly things online.

One of my recent faves is https://frij.io/

Each day a new set of words is presented, displayed as a virtual fridge magnet poetry set. You drag and drop a set number of words and then post it to the public board. You can scroll through what others have posted and vote for your favourites.

I think what I enjoy so much about it is that it is a creative exercise with a specific task and built-in restrictions. The objective is simple: create a short collection of words from this word list.

So, maybe I could make this work for me in a broader sense. Could I set up other practices or exercises with specific guidelines?

I find it difficult to write every day when I’m not sure what to write about. Writing prompts might work. Something to consider, certainly.